I want...

It sounds so petty when you think about it but for me? I dont know i just want it to mean something. I buy flowers for heaps of people, one of my good friends birthdays is tomorrow and it occurs to me in a conversation at lunch that i've never had flowers given to me. Everyone else spoke about the amazing feeling that they get when they get flowers at their show or on their birthday and you know what? I havent had flowers, I sit in the dressin room with my friends at our show an hey all have flowers at their mirrors and i don't. It's empty. God i sound like a complainy bitch.....I WANT FLOWERS.