Tuesday, 20 May 2014

My life currently

These lyrics basically explain my life

Waiting for superman by Daughtry


She’s watching the taxi driver, he pulls away
She’s been locked up inside her apartment a hundred days

She says, “Yeah, he’s still coming, just a little bit late.
He got stuck at the laundromat washing his cape.”
She’s just watching the clouds roll by and they spell her name
Like Lois Lane
And she smiles, oh the way she smiles

She’s talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She’s dancing with strangers,
Falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
Waiting for Superman

She’s out on the corner trying to catch a glimpse
Nothing’s making sense
She’s been chasing an answer, a sign lost in the abyss,
This Metropolis

She says, "Yeah, he’s still coming, just a little bit late.
He got stuck at the Five and Dime saving the day.”
She says, "If life was a movie, then it wouldn’t end like this,
Left without a kiss."
Still, she smiles, oh, the way she smiles, yeah

She’s talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She’s dancing with strangers,
She’s falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She’s waiting for Superman...

...to lift her up and take her anywhere
Show her love and flying through the air
Save her now before it’s too late tonight
Oh, at the speed of light
And she smiles

She’s talking to angels,
Counting the stars
Making a wish on a passing car
She’s dancing with strangers,
She’s falling apart
Waiting for Superman to pick her up
In his arms, yeah, in his arms, yeah
She’s waiting for Superman...

...to lift her up and take her anywhere
Show her love, oh, and flying through the air
Save her now before it’s too late tonight
She’s waiting for Superman

Wednesday, 14 May 2014

The Deadly Moments

You know how there are a sole few things that keep people alive....? You have those things that if they left your life or weren't there anymore you know that you would have no reason to live and possibly take your life if it came down to it. There are very deadly moments in one's life, especially for someone like me who has their happiness and their sanity and their LIFE relying one person. When you start to screw things up with them and it's your fault, you can't but want to die. I think I've screwed things up way too bad this time. I think this is the end for my lifeline.....I don't know what to do without him. It's a deadly moment right now... One more problem and i feel like i'll shatter like glass..... Believe it or not, i'm fragile and there are scissors, a knife, candles, matches, water, and so many drugs in my bedroom right now and it is so hard to resist the urge to retalliate and punish myself for the way i've acted and the stupid things that came out of my mouth that i should have stopped. Maybe if i'd had control over myself then maybe he wouldn't be out of my reach....

Good thing, he's not gone.

Yet.